Life Is Beautiful

Life is Beautiful

Submissions' over, exams are over, portfolio's done. I can finally do the things I like, anytime I like. Sleep, read, cook, read, go to the park, read some more. Do some reading up on architecture stuff. My lecturer Steffan suggested it and, like the naive student that I probably am, I'm going to do just that.

And of course, work.

I can't begin to describe how the timing sucks on this. I'm on part-time now, during the holidays. I can only go into full-time when the semester starts. Well I guess I should be thankful that at least I've got a job. Money issues pressing as usual, the phone call home is torturous. Gotta learn to come through on my own this time.

Please God, give me strength.

In the meantime, picnic next weekend!!

work

This is definitely wierd, and a wee bit pathetic. I'm addicted to my new job. Nothing seriously to be worried about, except that my new job is making kebabs in a Lebanese restaurant. Maybe I've never worked like this before. Maybe it's because I've never really had to work. Maybe because I've never worked in the food business before. So many maybe's, so little time...to work.

What the heck am I talking about?!!!

you

YOU

What does it say about you when someone tries to avoid your company? How are you supposed to feel, knowing that person doesn't want to be with you because you might have done something? Or that that person wants to get away from you because you are...simply the way you are? Knowing that what you should be feeling is guilt but the sinking feeling of being unwanted threatens to pull you down. Do you confront that person and ask? And risk getting hurt? Risk being put in a place you know you don't deserve to be? Perhaps I do know the reason, and perhaps I don't want to know it.

Oscar Wilde

If only...

"I am not young enough to know everything."
-Oscar Wilde


Ouch...reminds me of my teenage years when I actually thought, no make that believed, that I know everything. Well, maybe not everything but at least better than my parents did. Those years of dumbness.....*sigh*