Apr 28, 2007

Random Rambling #14

Random Rambling #14

I woke up to the yellow moon going down
I asked her, 'Which way should I sail my boat?'
She told me, 'Girl, it's ok, just keep it afloat,
the best is yet to come so don't fret and don't frown.

I told her, 'The winds are pulling my sail, I've got to go,
Will the best wait for me, should I take it for a ride,
This journey I'm on gets lonesome at high tide,'
She said ' Girl, raise your anchor, let time take it's tow...and just let it flow.'

Apr 23, 2007

This Grief Is Private

Random rambling #13
This grief is private....do not enter.
Approaching midnite with the lights out and I still can't bring myself any closer to facing the facts/truth/ugly truth or whatever. How often do you do this - keep expecting something to be when it's plain and simple that that something will never be as you want it. And yet you keep hoping that it might for the simple reason that the facts/truth/ugly truth would hurt too much. In fact, it would hurt so much that the pain of carrying on this silly charade while getting disappointed each time seems puny. How often do you wish there was a fast-forward button that would help you skip any painful episode that will undoubtedly surface? How often do you wish that life could be just like in the movies where one can cut from crying in one scene to another where one is already walking in a park with an optimistic smile steadily making one's way towards recovery? How often do you wish that you could communicate every pathetic detail of your dilemma without having to utter a single word? How often do wish that you could just BLANK it all out? I do. All the time.